lets trade shoes

2012-01-16T07:18:00.000-08:00

tears are history for me

tears are what words cant express. does that mean my heart has fallen deep into darkness.till i feel nothing at all. mother and father came to my room talked to me about my HP bill and about me smoking. they told me they cared and wanted me to stop because of my health. after saying that they said if i were to continue smoking they will stop the meds coming. my heart turned away from my soul. why must they always give me a consequence. cant they just realized if they were to just told me to stop i would. sigh. i don really know how to feel sad anymore. i knew they were hurting inside. my innocence tried to creep out of me. but i stopped it. didn want to show it.experiences hurts tears and getting angry while crying at the same time. i remembered the days where i did something hurtful to my parents when being angry but cried at the same time back in my room with the doors closed to soften the weeping. crying to sleep was a habit. i think i changed with time. i always thought to myself if i were them what will i do? will i get angry with you behind close doors or openly shout at you. those beautiful memories i had with u guys were fading. i am in my own world now burning every bridge u built in an effort to get to me. fear creeping up to me. scars with memories deep within my heart. i was scared i would get hurt again. if only i know how long i have more in this god-forsaken world maybe i would paint a picture of my life and present it to you with tears. religion is a thing of a past to me. leaving behind the old me. my footprints faded with time in this family. with time i think i would be history not to be remembered or forgiven or loved.

sincerly
a drying tear

2011-09-22T08:03:00.000-07:00

went to school. school's getting violent. someone bled again. sigh. went to dye my hair after that. took a cab. sat at the salon for like 3hrs + getting a weird color. went home. as usual dad gave me the black face. mom's away. smoked in my room. came out. dad say he would kill me.shouted back at him. why must this kind of bullshit be in my life. he also didn like my hair

well fuck it.

if only i had lots of money. i would run away

2011-09-20T06:31:00.000-07:00

sad birthdays.

thinking back. looking back. tears and sadness were all i saw in my past birthday memories. what are birthdays? a reminder to oneself u are invisible to the world. or why am i even in the world. a tool for someone? a teddy bear for someone? who cares and hugs you. gets bored of u and throw u away? pictured myself crying alone in a shopping mall. hoping someone would reach out a hand to me. buying me a cake. with gentle tones. whisper to me. a happy birthday. candles on the cake reflects the fire that sparkles back yr life once again. number of candles reflects the years u suffered and cried once again. over and over we repeat that so called "happy birthday" is birthday just about having fun? i asked myself. my mind repeatedly tells me nothing.

u told mi. never will you compare my sister and i. ya u came back home greeted her with a smile and shouted 3.7 GPA. well done! before that i walked back home. head down. thinking what i should do. looked at the cars speeding beside me. wanting to just take a step out and end it. i always look at your family and feel invisible. your would make a perfect family. no hatred, no hurts. laughter and smiles. u didn need to hide it anymore.
i knew for once i was a torn in the flesh. my heart really sank when i heard u greet my sister. walking swiftly i made my way to my room. as usual locked it. isolating myself from your world. what response did i get when i got my good progress award and scored a GPA of 3.4? just an acknowledgement. seeing from yr faces. ITE easy to score. no big deal. yea i got your point. u spent alot of money on me. less on my sister. i get it. repeat it. again and again.

yea we never did ever had a good conversation. always ended out us walking our separate ways.if i could ever recall. we judge too much. differ too much on each other's opinion. we didn have anything in common. well the only thing i could remember was the hospital where i nearly died. if ever someone asked me anything good u can remember about your parents? i would most probably say yea. when i was 3 or 5? flying the kite on the field with my dad. innocence.

well as the distance grows, we grow. stronger and stronger to the point where we will never shed a tear. instead just stabs that hurt so much in the heart. my remedy? blast music inside yr ears. forgetting the world behind yr chair.

birthdays -laughs-

baptism

2011-04-16T11:10:00.000-07:00

gt baptize today. at chc. the feeling was kinda normal. the thoughts that came to my mind were. i will sin again wont i? why did i go for it? and will i be a better person? went to movie wif fadhil. watched limitless. really sad today. finally i knew my parents didn care about me. weather i live or die.

brain nt functioning

apart

2011-04-03T06:30:00.000-07:00

breaking apart
i felt like i was drowning
my shadow dissapeared
im dying here
coz i cant say
wad i wanna say to you

i have always dreamt
of that moment
thinking that it will come real

i lost the purpose
i kept holding on
why did u let go?
im really dying here

it felt like
i was trap in a
small little box
with no windows
doors or light
just me squatting there
weeping

jumping into the waters
screaming your name
crying out loud
no one heard or came

i felt like i sld not
even have been in this world
maybe things will be better

every argument u had
every conclusion u jumped into
hurt me.

why?

heartbreak

2011-04-01T09:09:00.000-07:00

the path i was walking on
just dissapeared
i kept trusting
and trusting
praying and praying

saw a boy picking up pebbles
whispering a small wish
and throwing it into
the big sea of dreams

it floated at first
with hope
time passed
the small pebble sank
deeper and deeper
till it was no longer seen

looking at a white board
picking up letters
from a teacher's hand
trying to piece something together

thinking will this be alright?
will i fall down again?

the letter of disappointment came
i fought, cried, prayed
for the small little lamp
to light up
light up my world
once again

getting weaker
getting tired
will i ever be the same again

a smile, a tear
what difference will it make?
i choose to wear a mask
a mask of laughter
but deep inside
bleeding.

every tear i dropped
was full of regrets
and hatred for myself

saw a mirror
hit it with my might
i bled instead
why couldn this boy be me

smiling happily
without regrets
behind him a family

My Life

thinking.

2011-04-01T02:53:00.000-07:00

chances are something that others give
time is something that cant be given
chances can be re-given
time cant be re-given
i kept thinking of what i did in the past

i saw myself running towards a empty goal
a goal that seemed bright on the outside
but dark inside

i was running on glass
glass that could break easily

i knew that it was too late
i tripped, i fell
i saw myself on the floor
broken and tired
with my heart on my hand
thinking why did i do that?

i prayed and prayed
hoping that someone
would come by and pick me up

was it too late
or was it just a fairytale
a picture full of colors
turned black and white

the bright playground i once saw
disspeared...

a small boy
looking right and left
inching for just a little care

everyone around him was crying
yet he smiled
did he dissapear too?

the end of the road looked empty

lost, confused

pieces of my heart

2011-01-18T10:12:00.000-08:00

one piece
two piece
three piece
was thinking how many
pieces it will take to fill up
your lovely heart

we faced each other
on the screens,
looking at each other
with joy and laughter
holding hands,
locking pinkies
and laughing about anything
talking about anniversarys

i woke up,
was it a dream
infront of me was a mirror
empty hearts
broken pieces
standing next to each other
looking down

a broken heart
i will pick the many tiny pieces
of your heart
and with it
love you

a tall, strong wall
i saw it between us
i made a tiny hole
so with it
i could just take a tiny look at u

made a string out of love
just to pull u to my side
so tt i could shelter you
from all darkness and sadness

holding your hand
in a dark and lonely tunnel
made it look like
there was light at the end

warmth, was wad u brought
into my life
love was wad u taught me

this is wad i wanna think
of you

i had loved you

Jireh

bleeding heart

2011-01-05T11:02:00.000-08:00

my heart sank,
numb my heart.
missing you
getting jealous over u
every stab i take, every tear i made
was all for you.

missing yr smiles and laughter
your joy made my world new
i turned bak and looked

maybe it would be better if i knew u,
some other way. rather den the other

my heart longed for u,
every tugged of war i played.
i would lose. just for you

the times we were happy together
are worth the times I cry alone

every saddness i see in yr face
i would try my best to dry yr tears

i hate the stars because
i look at the same ones as you do, without you

a girl like no other. a 1 in a million
i took the courage and took a step
wanting to shower u wif an abundance of love
a hug, telling u everything its a alright
and everything is bright outside
anything to keep u warmth inside

telling you,
if u were a rose,
i would be the torns protecting u
no matter the weather

sunshine or rain,
i would just always be beside you
with my ears and heart wide open
patiently just waiting for you
with arms wide open

i just wanna say

i love you

2010-06-29T09:26:00.000-07:00

a devil holding a knife
we stabbed each other
ate the hearts of an angel
laughed and cried

blood were spilled on the ground
we stood there,
got to our kneels
asked ourselves why did we do that

tears mixed with blood
we saw our own reflections
u and me,
wearing a mask
we didn recognised each other
who was this person right beside me?

den we saw a star in that dark sky
mirror-ing all our good times
we stared at our bloody hands
with our names scared into our palms
we touched our hearts
it was cold.

we didn know each other anymore

Jireh Lee

2010-06-29T09:20:00.000-07:00

i was once a boi on a sad lonely road
when a saw a beautiful person along that road
her eyes sparked, with passion and kindness
she took my hand, held it tight
and told mi everything would be alright

days passed,
went home everyday
telling her how my day was
she always listened and replied with a smile
a goodbye kiss and a hug
was that wad kept us strong?

years passed
went to high school
hugs and kisses were history
but still u stood by me

wad happen to that person?
her smiles and nods i missed
her enocouragement and support i missed

people changed my son
who changed? mi, u?
the bridge was getting old
broken and hurt
games we played
stab each other, lies and laughter
accusses and misunderstandings

sunshine turned into rain
blue clouds turned to storms
i could only see a shadow of that,
once apon a time beautiful person
fading in the darkness

walls seem to be suffocating mi
with a hand puppet, i tried to laugh
tried to smile.

saw my albums, saw myself smiling
holding her hand. laughing innocently
mummy i love you.

words not said, words unheard
words not taken to heart. words forgotten
scars remained. our hearts hardened.

where is our smile? our rainbow?
i asked myself once again
a small drop
reflecting all our good memories
feel down my cheek
touched the ground
and dissapeared

why did u go away?

Jireh Lee

2010-06-29T09:10:00.000-07:00

i miss a happy family. alot of things in my mind. yet. i cant put them into words. it looks alright from the outside. but inside its broken. family. i look at others with their happy familys. yet my own. filled with mis-communication and fights. i cant talk to them well at all. our personality totally don match. was in my room doing my own stuff. she barged in. and picked a fight. the hatred inside mi burst. im never good enough for them. i didn wan to be borned this way too. did i look like i had a choice. i really hate my life right now. if only i could become another person. with a normal life. since i can rmb, i had numb my sadness, trying to make a joke out of it. told myself not to tear. but always when this kind of things happen. it just flows down. i tried, and tried. why, cant she speak to mi nicely. really lost. pain and tears are these the only 2 things tt will remain in my life. ppl may ask mi to think on the bright side.i tried. really tried. u wiped away my smile. u darken my sun. i advoided u coz i didn wan to fight. but u keep on confronting mi. i thought a smile would wipe away all tears. looks like i was wrong. i try to do other stuff. make ppl laugh, actually to make myself cheerup too.

till i forgot how to make a REAL smile.

2010-04-14T04:59:00.000-07:00

2010-04-14T04:48:00.000-07:00

she was msging, and i was behind her. walking out of yt point. the door was abt to close, hitting her. i held it. when i was abt to walk away. she said thank you. it was the sweetest voice i ever heard in my life. was like an angel saying hello. she looked at me. wanting to say something. i didn know wad to do. so i walk fast, running off. as a walk step by step. i felt werid. like seriously. when i was abt to reach home. i asked myself, y didn i stay to listen to wad she had to say? y did i put up a strong front and juz walk away. was i scared of her sweet voice?

love?
love is nt saying that u will try yr best but u, giving it yr all.
when she says, im' alright. shes not really ok, she juz doesnt wan u to worry.
when she says leave mi alone, thats pls be next to me.

love is waiting for her even if shes's late, still putting up yr best smile.
love is compassion, kindness, helpful-ness and paitience.

love is everything, everytime, and every1

i have made alot of silly mistakes, and glad i didn do much harm. :DD

donnoe y i suddenly have so much inspiration
i guess, the traces of my heart that i have left behind are lost

im nt heartbroken. :) juz deep thoughts.

2010-03-16T11:02:00.000-07:00

went to sch today. was late so didn meet them. daddy sent me to sch. first time i first 1 to reach. hahas. had class test. butterflys in my stomach. fought with 1 si botak classmate in my class. fucking hate her attitude so fking noisy. ppl studying come in class. make so much noise. u study so much 50 nia? lol limbei study 1 day 80. lol. don step hardworking lar. yawns. bloody botak really spoilt my day. got fking moody thx to her. knn. grats on who scored well. :D fren got new CPU helped him fixed it up. now his comp better den my ler. jealous. hahas.

poned afternoon class. tmr also pon. lol.

bus-stop boredom. :D

2010-03-09T07:12:00.000-08:00

went to sch today. met with the usual peeps. hahas. kinda like my canteen food now. heeex. ate mac for lunch. tried the spicy fries!!. hahas. :D nthing much today

ate ice-cream today.

2010-03-08T06:50:00.000-08:00

wheee phase test over. happy :D
special thanks to yiping for helping me.
don always emo. wan hear yr loud laughter de. x)

went to eat subway. thx haiping and osy pei wo. heeex. loveeee haiping ghost storys. hope i don get nightmares tonight. :x osy look so scared lar. shouting CHANGE TOPIC LEI. hahas.
after that went to fad house. slack. good luck to his exams tmr. jyjy.
dota. 41 kills 0 deaths riki. wakakaka.
showed mummy my work. she was impressed. hahas

lovesss

2010-03-07T05:30:00.000-08:00

went to church today. hahas. met up wif jiamin, bert and sw, jojo. jojo sing sooo nice sia. perfect pitch. hahas. went to clementi party world. 4 hrs. so ex 21+ per person. anyways fun bah. hahas. bert drop soup and his drink sia. laugh die. and sw NS jokes, made mi laugh till tummy pain. with jiamin camwhore LOL. help mi make my fb pic till sooo many sia.

tmr phase test. nervous. :D

yiping jiu wo. x3

2010-03-04T23:41:00.000-08:00

Love is what ever you can still betray. Betrayal can only happen if you love. John LeCarre

The day you betrayed my trust was the day that I lost all my trust for you. I believed that you would take care of my heart and that's why I left it with you. Well, I am taking it back because at this very moment I can't trust you with my heart in fear that you will hurt me once more. Unknown

Trust can take years to build, but only a second to break. Unknown

The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.

2010-03-04T23:35:00.000-08:00

frens, i have always believe in 朋友一生一起走。but nowadays, i kinda to hav lost trust in it. a history a beautiful memory. looking bak just seems so happy. we grew abit by abit closer and closer. to a extend we would almost talk abt anything. we expected each other to understand each other. we fell. i did not wan to get up. i tried. if being close was wrong. i think the more we are close frens the easier we hurt 1 another. the bond in frenship. its just so fragile. secrets. gossips.

we just went our ways

im just human

2010-03-04T20:58:00.000-08:00

the good times. missed those. sch nw doesnt really feel at home now. really bothered abt certain things. stilll, thx all the frens who hav always been just beside me. i try to make a laugh but inside tear-ing. sometimes i just feel so lost. upcoming phase tests. monday. need to really do something. numbness of feelings is wad i need to do now. haisss. a dark world of my. portraying myself looking at the ocean on an island. just sitting and whispering to myself. " u will be alright "

tired
if i could change 1 thing.
i would wan to put a smile on everyone's faces.

2010-03-04T08:21:00.001-08:00

went to tamp to find fad and cass. hahas. had so much fun today and ytd. watched dear john and alice in the wonderland. wheee. jyjy all for upcoming exams. envy after tures they free ler.

x3

2010-03-02T17:04:00.000-08:00

wanted to meet. she called. 30mins. went to get prepared. den got msg. ran to yew tee. go there no one. missed 2 trains coz too packed. saw them at bb. just wanted to talk alone and think. sided here and there. things happen when ppl are to close to each other.

...

2010-03-01T17:27:00.001-08:00

whee, finally some burden left my shoulders. E-greeting card finish ler. and phase test just over. woohoo. hahas. but next coming mr ng test and mr yang phase test. haisss. jyjy bah

lovee

2010-02-28T06:51:00.000-08:00

went to church today. today combine service! so i came like sibei late lar. lol. saw jiamin and frens. hmm, had lunch together den all went home. kinda sian. after that wanted to go study with jiamin. but fren jio go out. so i went out. wakaka. went to clementi to sing K. after that went to have subway! sian there student meal bo BMT. zzz. but still nice bah. :D

ps: xueli stop asking mi go singapore idol LOL.

and i haven finish my e-greeting card. emo~ tmr sch need chiong. bless me.
exams upcoming. :(
watching autumn concerto. x3

2010-02-24T03:35:00.001-08:00

oh ya, and today while waiting at westmall. got 1 girl touch my tummy and say hi.(coz i was msging) looking down. lol. i think she know mi, find her familar too. but i not sure who. hahas. werid

2010-02-24T03:22:00.000-08:00

went to school today. dad sent me. went there. pris didn come sch. Oo. first 2 lessons soooo dry. dry die. theory. omg lar. 1 whole row sleeping. hahas. including me. played CS thrashed arjun upside down. he owe mi 50 cents. 1 kiill 10 cents xD nbm he pay mi ler. wakaka. went to prata shop to eat. tmd 1 chicken + 1 egg + rice = 4.50 wtf lar. zzz. msg pris, den know she coming. PIG. told mi her comp can go internet ler. wheee. hahas. hope all is well. things are slightly different in school now. just feel un-stated. haish. don wish to think about it.

e-greeting card << this is gonna gib mi white hair, i choose valentine btw. hearts flying like butterflys. pretty.
and phase test << this 2

heees.
frens i treasured

2010-02-23T00:30:00.000-08:00

giving everything i have, always being there. i donnoe why i feel sad sometimes. laughing alot joking alot just seem to be redundunt when it comes to certain things. friends for forever? is this a fairy tale or a goal every1 is trying to reach? things that i held close to my heart, now seems so far away. sometimes i just wish im a robot with no emotions at all. so that i can make pratical decisions. don wanna say some stuff. a mask of joy and comfort. a need and a trust. a dream. living a life without regrets. its sooo hard. i try to be a loyal fren at all times. but it doesnt seem to be working. maybe im thinking to much. but this feeling really shucks.

lost love

2010-02-17T06:44:00.000-08:00

always pointing a finger at me, always blamming and accusing me. im always the bad guy. born to be blamed. fuk u guys.

i only blog something makes mi unhappy nwadays.

fuk life

2010-02-16T21:06:00.000-08:00

in school today. rather senstive i guess. friends, thought suppose to be sharing and laughing together. i tried to gib in. but loooks to mi tt, im the only one trying. trying not to think too much into it. finding that our frenship is going down the hill. well we had good memories. inprinted in my mind. don wanna comment coz i know that we may fight. don wanna advoid coz i know things.a sense of belonging? chinese new year was ok i guess. gave ang baos bak to my mother despite. don like ppl to bomb mi. i know u gt your reasons. but i don get it. think that i have a diferent representation of frenship. haisss.

think i trust people to easily. juz for them to take advantage and betray my trust in dem.

made me gave up

i would write your name on every star, so that when i look up in the sky, i would always see your smile

lovee, a tear

2010-01-23T06:28:00.000-08:00

today was a little hard. cold and hot winds sometimes. really confuse. when u are nice, is that temp nice or? don really know hw to react. been thru this. i know we are both trying. but.

don wanna think about it.
asap lv. x)

unsure abt mysself.

feel like eating tibits lol. dam long bo eat ler

scared that my studies will get affected. arghhh
wan my gpa high high

2010-01-22T21:54:00.000-08:00

HELLO ! =)
Helping the LAZY Jireh to post .
-Thinking what to post-
Everyday so bored !!
MISS HIM , but no time to meet up .
He so busy !! Busy man .
Got a lot of appointment then go out with friends .
Will end the post here , tag him to make his blog more alive , THANKS !
His blog song so nice & Jia Yous Jireh in learning the song =D

2010-01-20T08:26:00.001-08:00

lost love found hate
forgot how it feels to be loved again

lostt

2010-01-20T08:09:00.000-08:00

cant seriously communucate with her. go out of my rooom, already mood loss. zzz. like i wan talk to her like tt. knn

when to sch today, sibei late. actually donwan go de. did cable stuff today. ate kfc. okok bah. came home rest awhile den chiong 2x till 10pm. haish.

actually i donnoe wad i am doing,
maybe i juz wanna run away from this world, called reality

slack.

2010-01-18T09:27:00.000-08:00

i hate my family, don even wish to talk to them. act nice for once or twice den? knn, fuk u all. wolf in sheep's clothing. lol mother? if u cant love mi for who i am den fk off. the whole family is against me? all blame mi. wtf. i come this world let u blame, so u can keep peace within yrselfs. lol go church for fuck? cb, nice kum lan. keep using god all that to try to control mi. all this sld be i choose nt u fking tell mi wad to do. all the fking rules. grace ler can ler, need mi for fk. pray for sis har? kill myself. im always the wrong 1. den u try to be scastic, and den wad try to make mi feel bad? think i fall for yr low life tricks enough ler. i try my best at everything. u just don think its enough. lol "try yr best can ler" ? don talk cock. these words fking easy to say. when u don mean it. hugs << fakes. wear a mask in front of everyoue. cant even have a fun and meaningful conversation with u.

fuck off family

those ppl who are closest to u hurt u the most
but i guess my heart as stoned

i tried starting conversations with nice tones, u returned mi with angry ones. making excuses like i cant hear.

u can make excuses to every1.
i wont even bother to hear them anymore
wont bother to even show u my results
wont bother to even tell u about my day

wont even bother talking to you

fuck my life

2010-01-15T08:20:00.000-08:00

stayed at home in the morning and afternoon. bought lunch for mom. slacked in front on lappy. evening met up with aris to go airport to send my close frens bran and hazel off to NZ once again. lots of things were in my mind. its was the 2nd time they were leaving us. those loveable memories i still recalled. playing the gameboi hahas. in church was so much fun. wanted to hug her b4 she left. but shy. hahas. took pics. didn really talk much. think every1 was feeling sad. for mi i felt stuck sad. like i didn know wheather to cry or not. is like a bone taken from u again and again. but i didn cry. guess i grew up. but still they will always be close to my heart. forever and always x3

went to crystal jade for dinner. auntie treat. hahas. sooo many dishes. muz be ex. thx lottss. x)

frens come and go, but they still remain in my heart

forever..

2010-01-13T05:40:00.000-08:00

went there today. sian ji bua so dam sian. waiting time soooo long. after that went to grandma house while waiting for dad to pick mi go bak. there watch stepfather dam nice. thriller. ate 3 fish meals today. morning fish with rice, afternoon same night same. lol donnoe y i seem to like fish nw adays. ok random. lawls. today they go watch vampire's assistant sian. jio mi but i cannot go. x( slept in daddys car. lol the whole behind my bed. heex.

to sibei hum cb person who post 1 kpkb post on my cbox. wuji put name details all that. bark like 1 dog. pui.

music x3

2010-01-11T05:52:00.000-08:00

went to school today. lunch went to yew tee. 2 hr lunch break. after that wanted to go home to slack first. saw her at taxi stand. like dam long bo talk ler. good luck for Os. careful! new shoes blisters. poor thing lor. haish.

after that went back to school did some flash design. before lunch the lab bo comp. so the girls camwhore so i join in. sibei sian lor. i sat on the comfy chair. machiam chairman. LOL. session head taught us. got 1 student come fly kiss her and even OI her. LOL. laugh till peng. funny sia.

need to save up. think im spending tooo much.

trying out twitter as plurk like nw bo fun. sooo quiet. actually twiitter also. when did i start it? so not me

wednesday... :(
lovess

2010-01-10T06:47:00.000-08:00

went out to play with them today. kinda fun. kinda hard to interact at first too. but nt too bad lar. blogger finally ok, found out its because i wasnt running it in compatility mood. lol.

hate wed, hope everything gonna be alright. haish

waiting.

2010-01-08T08:05:00.000-08:00

y cant i post pics. feel like changing donwan use blogspot anymore.

anyways, met pris and sw today. went imm to eat. den walk ard daiso aimlessly. after that went my house to slack. hahas watch silent hill. hmm good plot i guess. nt that scary. tmr wad to do lei. sian again. =x happy family for now bah. wed need go again. sian. hope everything turns out alright.

sweet dreams

2010-01-05T03:15:00.000-08:00

donnoe wheather im doing the right or wrong things sometimes. tend to be more sensitive. parents on the other side, communications still cmi. cant really talk to them. i donnoe why. like im always the one to blame always me. feels like im a torn in the flesh in the family. praises dissapeared. thanks disspeared. time dissapeared.

true love, is loving mi for who i am, not trying to control or change anything. deep feelings.

desss

2010-01-05T03:12:00.001-08:00

went to school again, after 2hrs. finish. lol. went to west mall to eat. after that they went to my house. hahas played fb as usual. den tried to teach osy guitar. she keep pressing 2 strings!. jyjy. my little warriour sound sooo funny. bish bish. hahs. watched fame tgt. hope they liked it x)

x)

2010-01-04T04:09:00.000-08:00

first day of sch. went to school, for 30 mins. cause teacher say today gt 1st yr orientation so gt alot of people busy. after that we went to slack at mac. there internet sibei slow. watched avatar at westmall, slept like 3 times. not coz boring coz last night cant sleep properly. air-con mood swing. the 3D specs so dam heavy lar. make my head heavy. wearing 2 specs. like wtf. thx for pei wo make new ez-link. -winks-

lovesss,

2009-12-30T19:35:00.000-08:00

going out today for countodown, hope everything will be fun. don really know if i can really hav fun though. will try bah.

2010 hahas, excited? heees

juz hope everything on my life journey will juz proceed smoothly

2009-12-30T19:34:00.000-08:00

we would nv get along. being nice was only for a short awhile. mom and dad, i tried really hard to communicate with u guys. i talked, u ignored. den scolded mi. i donnoe hw many of this kind of post i have been posting. till now, things haven really change much. i don even know y we even bother going to chuch anymore. blame mi. ya. grace was everything u guys ever needed. y even try to care abt mi anyway.

those memorise how i wish i could juz flush all of that out of my mind

2009-12-26T09:28:00.000-08:00

went out wif osy xue and fad, early in the afternoon. went to arcade while waiting for zhu, played alot lar. fun also. she came also play. after tt, went to meet yp b4 going to dobby guat. to PS to get geok's present. we bought her a so called disco lamp. i think sibei chio lar. hahas. after that went to parklane mall to play l4d2, sad yp bo play. fun! wheee, hahas. after tt yp had to go off LIKE AGAIN AND ALWAYS LAR. haish bo bian her mom. so forgive her lor. hahas, after tt went to eat LJS, hahas the chicken hard like fk. but ok lar.
after that we all went to the UNISEX TOLIET. OMFG, gt such thing sia. hahas, they all put make up. so mi and fad also put lor for the fun or it. wakaka, lol. try lor. look kinda gay. but fun. x))

after tt cab over to geok house, and played cards near her swimming pool, the guard fked up, say can take pic but no flash. wtf lar. heck, mich,mk and pb came later, with a lighted cake!!. hahas. sang bdae song, with smiles written all over geok's face. so nice. went bak to her house to slack. hahas, me and osy took cab home.
thx osy!

thx mich offer us a ride, in yr car. but too many ppl ler.
later u tio fine -winks-

2009-12-25T08:46:00.000-08:00

christmas is over, santa claus as left for antartica, bla bla. went to church for christmas, slept during service, sooooo dry. nt saying its no good. maybe suitable for some ppl nia. keep repeating and repeating. bth. hair look like shit. walk in feeling shitty. mood change, personality change. donnoe wad to say. service ended, solo home. kinda use to being solo nw. gets mi to think abt emo stuff. lawls.

went to cousin's house. as usual laughter could be heard even outside his house. hahas. so big lar. 3 story or 4. room gt so big tv, ps3 all tt. everything. played dota, see him play DMC 4. sooo chim. ate buffet. there the people sooo nice to mi. hahas. like my father's side more, heees.

ask mi go clubbing. thought it was so ex. so bo go. cq sia. far. k lar i live at the west. x)

happy bdae geok x)
tmr going out, with osy group. with fad too. fun de sure x)

lovesss.

2009-12-24T09:22:00.001-08:00

cross game, Koi Kogarete Mita Yuma , my blogsong

a dam sad anime. -baseball,

here by myself, i feel like

journeying somewhere far away

i could have never imagined,

losing you would be so easy

when the future is cloudy, when

there is no courage to go on

i need you to take my hand

with your usual smile,

saying, "hurry, come with me"

the dreams i saw while in love,

were the times spent with you

what pains me the most, is being so

close to you, yet unable to help at all

every being born linked at heart,

filling the world with their love song

if i keep walking on this path

will it one day lead mi to you?

i need another chance so i can finally tell you

from the botton of my heart,

"sorry" and "thank you"

the dreams i saw while in love,

were the times spent with you

simply staying by your side brings me great joy

that's the most important

thing i want you to know

please, will someone tell me,

why do people fall in love?

2009-12-24T08:43:00.001-08:00

and happy christmas to all. hahas. wheee. thx-giving time. jesus bdae. x)
hope that christmas service will be well. haish

nw emo part. really unsure abt certain things. abt hw to go about dealing with it and so on.
try not to think abt it.

hohoho, i know veri funny 1 high 1 emo. lol

2009-12-24T08:40:00.000-08:00

hmm, suddenly jo-ann, call mi go CHC for some christmas act. so i go lor. went there, whaaa full. sian 1/2. so went to hav dinner at subway. dam sad lar, every subway nw don hav italian bmt. sob my fav. anw. after tt. we could nt make up our mind on where to go, so we went to city hall and sat there for like 1/2 an hour. lol. slacking at city hall mrt. lawls. first time. dam funny. after that went to meet her frens at lot 1. while waiting play arcarde. dance, judebox. all that shit. whee finally know hw to play initial D 5. wooohooo. and i tired midnight wagan, don really like it. lol.

tmr service 10am. early. don think i hav enough rest. nw adays come bak sooo late.

but fun lar. x)

2009-12-23T16:11:00.000-08:00

met up with yp and phoebe to go class bbq, went to eunos, donnoe which bus to take, we waited for pb, she also donnoe wad bus to take. lol. so in the end took cab. went there saw them. help jm, return bike. SO BLOODY FAR. FKING FAR K, FROM 1 END OF EAST COAST TO THE OTHER END. KNS ride till my leg so dam fuking pain. den rent a bike, had to return mi again. wtf lar. thx yiping pei wo. ran and ran too. think i exercise alot to. walk to much in eastcoast. run also. played cheat. lol i win. wheee. ate only satays. hahas. nice yummy. though not alot of ppl came. all in all it was fun. after that we played pool till 1am. b4 slacking ard and den starting lan at parklane. L4D2 rawks! when u play with the right ppl. x)) play play, dota, audi, l4d2. till 6.40 like tt. went home. SHAG.

p.s got results, was good. but gpa still not up to standard. haish

fun day.
happy christmas eve x)

2009-12-22T06:08:00.000-08:00

went out in the afternoon today. till ard lunch. met up with him, went to clementi to play lan. dota!. whee. hahas. had planned to go cycling at night de. but sadly raining. so cancel lor. hmm, tmr class bbq, excited and scared. lol scared i fail my exams. heard results coming out at 8am 23rd dec. scary. haish

bought new ear-ring lol. a hooppy type, black de. at lot 1. x)

drift drift.

2009-12-21T02:12:00.000-08:00

cam and played some fake audi online, in the morning. before leaving for queensway shopping centre. kinda my first time going there. bought a studded belt for only 10 bucks. whee. left it with my fren though. he lost his wallet sadly. 200 bucks inside sia. heart pain. shoopping for basketball shoes. donnoe y today run up and down staircase in the end head so pain.

installed audi on both comps whee, nw can train and even earn exp and den. lol.
hope tt i will pass my exams, results coming out this web. haish
christmas is coming. going cousin's house

communication between family members ought to be better. hard, sometimes its better to not even talk.
donnoe wad to say, donnoe wad to do.

friends?

2009-12-20T08:01:00.000-08:00

sad and pissed. why cant u juz respect my passion and let mi go ahead with it. i love music. stopped learning music long ago. missed it. sadden at the fact u don even let mi try. felt that everything inside mi shattered. dreams and passion. don u know yr words can hurt. u let her learn the piano, but not mi. why. is it really that hard just to giv mi a chance. u came bak. we fought again, i tried really hard. i kept holding on. but u kept letting go. why.

really scared 1 day i would totally lose the passion for it. or will be too old to learn it.
why does everything has to be soooo hard.
words hiding my deep feelings

confusedd

2009-12-19T21:35:00.000-08:00

came bak from church. donnoe y everytime i step in there, i feel i become another person. as in less happy or nt myself. sadly. today mom and sis coming bak from thaiwan. going to airport to fetch them i guess with dad. lots of things in my mind. results are coming out soon. nervous. really wan to get As. frens, the more time u spend with some1 u treasure the more chance u would fight with them. i donnoe wad i am suppose to do. i just don feel right with u guys anymore. feel like im like a lamp post. maybe its just me. don even intend making this sound so emo. anyways the concert last night was good, putting aside the lousy mic. hahas. really hope that this christmas will be a great 1 for me.

lovess

2009-12-19T07:48:00.001-08:00

GERMAINE HERE !!!!
Helping the JIREH to post :D !
See I so good ..
Currently we are chatting on msn , plurk & facebook ..
Dixiao-ing :D !
So long never chat with him .
Miss him :P !
Helping him to REVIVE his DEAD blog ?
HAHA , JIREH better say THANKS or you are DEAD !
I will end here :D

2009-12-08T03:50:00.000-08:00

heys. x) haven blog in awhile. thinking about leaving it there to juz rot and die. anyways hmmm. exams over. christmas coming. chf bdae coming. lotts of decisions to make. like wheather to go to church camp or wad. coz not many ppl i know going. mom ask mi to go. wan to work also donwan to work.and lots more. lots of things in my mind right now. this year really flew pass. bdae was a bang, exams was hell. << ok lar not tt bad hahas. went to watch case 39 today. hmm similar to orphan i guess. same plot. life is getting boring muz fill my life wif much more activities. mom and sis leaving going overseas on thursday. leaving daddy and me. still finding a person that i really love. confused. and sad. maybe i sld change to become more serious rather den being funny all the time. a heavy heart. hazel is coming bak to sg. hoping that all will be well. really wan to improve my guitar too.

hearts & regrets

2009-11-30T08:57:00.000-08:00

went to school today, mom drove mi there. had mr ng lesson, followed by mr terrence. hints? hahas. dam little lor. am happy that tuesday no lesson. meaning i can go for my 2nd interview. hopes everything goes well. at payer layba so far lar. and its my first time. blur. went to mos house to slack awhile b4 meeting them. ate subway again. 2 times lar. today. lunch and dinner. wheee. played dota at my house. at night studied. wheee went thru 31 chapters of DMT. hahas. but not sure if anything went in. copied alot of notes. hand bleeding!

x)

2009-11-29T06:41:00.000-08:00

went to hebron den suddenly mood swing so went to new creation with aris. had a good time wif him i guess. ate lunch at suntec. x) miss those days at city harvest. haish. hmm, after tt met up with them. went to warren golf country club to study. played abit initial D at the arcarde thrashed both of them. wahahaha. heees. mom and dad came and we all had dinner tgt. i had terriyaki dory fish. woohooo. we all had to squeeze in the car. hahas. fun day.

stressed, tues interview again. should i go? i will miss class if i go. and wed is my final exams.

confused

2009-11-22T07:18:00.003-08:00

went to chuch today, jo made pancakes for us. wheee. bought audrey a bdae present. hope she likes it. hmmm, msg was abt jonah and his cute whale. after that went to sw house. ate subway for lunch again. wakakak. tried to install RO on his comp, but sadly cant. haish. stayed there and played till ard 6. den went to eat at yt wif jo and him. came bak home eat again lol. fattt.

donnoe tmr wad time start sand animation. lol. -____-

fatt

2009-11-21T05:12:00.000-08:00

wheee, went to k-lunch early in the morning with jo and bert. whaa today voice kns. jo sing sooo nice. didn know k-lunch the food so nice. i ate thai-chicken x) after that ate SUBWAY again!. wakaka, den met sw. we to mug at starbucks at wisma. i finish reading all my pass exams papers. don noe gt go inside my head not. heees. den did a survey abt coffee tt was give to us by some poly students. cool right. starbucks so comfortable sia. can sleep de. after that we walk around. took some pics. hees, and while we walking, some people passed as some paper bags with holes to wear on our heads. AND A SUMMON. lol? funny. went home after that. sw pei wo dinner. hahas. thx bro

lovess

2009-11-20T06:20:00.000-08:00

me and grandma x)

2009-11-20T05:52:00.000-08:00

had to miss sch for appointment today. when to visit grandma. later came bak from sand animation. i passed and iproved in my retest. not like jinmin lol study so much? don make mi laugh lar hor. today at least learn a few things. arjun dam funny today. lol. after that went with yp to meet osy near casueway point. went there walk ard shopping. hmm, causeway point actually alot of things to shop wor. hahas. didn know. wanted to buy an mp3 actually. pei them buy guitars. now mi, osy, hp and yp all same guitars. wheee. after that went to subway with meeling and ru. gave her a teddy hoped she liked it.

now, came bak online, got to know that JINMIN << SEE HOR I NOT SCARED METION YR LJ NAME. i dedi this post to u. in fear my hair will drop. FUCK U K? SIMI WARN? LJ PANGSEI PPL STILL WAN TALK COCK SING SONG? YR HUMJIN PENG FKING SMELLY K? KNN I TARHAN U DAM LONG LER. DON THINK I CAN GIV KEEP QUIET AND LET U TALK BEHIND MY BAK. ALOT OF PPL TELLING MI THAT U TALKING SHIT BEHIND MY BACK. pls lar hor, i giv u face nia, if i start to suan, i tell u, u sure peng. u wan play this game? lai lor. COPY PPL PLURK SIMI LAN? WAN TO MIX WITH PPL? CHANGE YR ATTITUDE LAR. bloody fucktard.

pissed

2009-11-19T07:16:00.000-08:00

went to giv her a surprise. lol ended up falling down. -___- felt sad all of a sudden idk why. haish

p.s ppl complain i bo reply tags so...

pamela> heys yr welcome. help mi cut bangs k? x)

marilyn> wads up miss thor hahas. whos stalking u?

jojo> i know i look cool wakakaka. bhb i know. yew tee de subway. hahas near my house mah

si ying> kk i put u in charge u bring k? i carry hahas. rain is so fun coz i get to kick water at yr faces wheee.

yiping> hahas we always look good, u also ok mah u and yr small eyes. =x

HAPPY NOW OSY?

2009-11-19T02:26:00.000-08:00

wheee, hahas. not really used to waking up at 9+. went to sch for mr terrence retest. he put me in the other room lar. sob sob. after that went to west mah to have lunch. kimchi rice nice meh? see hp eat till face red. after that wanted to head bak to sch for guitar lessons. but david called to say that it will be held at 8th note. so we took a cab. today kan pua swuay the fker bus uncle say cant tap,tap. wtf lar. i pay also still 55 cents. noob like fk. den then in the cab rain like siao. uncle say stop talking coz he need to concentrate. lol? nw adays keep rain. rain also fun lar. but we stuck at the bloody bus stop. OMG, almost forget momo today dam hiong scold 1 auntie WEI coz she spray water at her. scary sia. i had to run to 8th note and run bak to the bus stop to giv the girls the umbrellas. luckily no bus or car spray water at me. x) found out at 8th note his guitar was 1k+ omg lar. after that walk back to the bus stop. half way tio heavy rain again. lol me, osy and yp share 1 tiny umbrella. lol. dam funny. all squeeze. my back all wet can. took bus to cck den to yt. so nice sia osy today pei wo subway.

subway overdosed. wakaka
x3

2009-11-18T06:00:00.000-08:00

went to nyaa today. was kinda mad coz people keep ordering me around. one person also talk behind my back. kan pua buay tarhan. wan say, say at my face lar. nb. quit nyaa, heck. met fad lunch. he was already running 4 hrs late. after that went to 8th note. wanted to purchase my guitar there. sadly must order de. david was also not around so another teacher had to guide us. heees. learnt qing tian intro abit. rained heavily at first followed by a drizzle, we played in the rain hahas. dam high at tt time. talk so much cock. hide below hp bag. hahas. went home, on the bus she slept with her mouth wide open. laughdie.

bought an acostic guitar at causeway, with yo. hmm pretty nice. rosewood. heees. asked sw to help mi tune, but he happened to be wif ml, so went to my house. decided to study in my house. we were strumming guitars while he was studying for As lol. bad right. had dinner at yt. and skype rawks free to talk. wheee.

going giv someone a surprise later. muz ton till 12 midnight. happy bdae dear

happy x)

2009-11-17T05:05:00.001-08:00

fuck fuck!! i wan go see meteor shower . omg! rawrrr. sob sob

emo/depressed

2009-11-17T03:35:00.001-08:00

tmr need do NYAA again. omg. haish nvm do good deed also good. get tix to heaven. wheee. 8th note afterwards

:D

2009-11-17T02:45:00.001-08:00

went to watch 2012 today with fad and frens. hmm a 2&1/2 hour movie. kinda sad and depressing. but all in all nice. but the ending didn make sense to me. next movie case 39!. whee. went to school today typed out 60 mcq questions till hand bleed. (kua zhang) hahas. after that pon class. x)

hope mom will be reasonable and let mi buy the guitar MYSELF > her money i buy. lol
yawns

dark eye rings go away!
yawns

2009-11-15T21:02:00.000-08:00

went to school. had phase test. rather confusing. but guess its all well. felt a little sad today, confused about many things. to me personally i really hold frenship really close to my heart. think im getting sensitive. but juz feel tt sometimes ppl may come and go. that when new people come, u will kinda get forgotton or something. or rather drift away from the fren u were close to. i donnoe. maybe i juz worry too much. different types of frens, 1 whom u bear yr heart to, and the rest whom they just pass by yr life and walk away. missed my old self, where i didn even care.

p.s: im nt aiming anyone, juz stating hw i feel.

i held your hand tightly not wanting to let go. u walk away, leaving mi behind, i waited till dawm.
looking down at my pool of tears, just to see myself

wishing i could turn bak time, till while i was still in sec sch. and start things over.
some1 build a time machine.

x3

anyway i still love all of my fren.
thanks bestie for telling me u would always be there =)

sigh.

2009-11-15T04:05:00.001-08:00

thx sooo muchie for kelly to tell mi the heading spelled wrong. yay. thx x)

2009-11-15T03:18:00.001-08:00

whaaa, don like ppl tag mi. "tagged". wth lar. -_____-
trying to link ppl x)
and i got a new house phone. yay -jumps up and down- x)

2009-11-15T03:09:00.000-08:00

went to church today, msg today sooo chim. not going for youth camp i guess. hahas bert in jungle with the monkeys. whee. went to shengwei's house after tt. with jojo, and mos. slack there till evening. ate subway again for lunch. seriously subway helps to lose weight. lol. think im starting to talk like a girl nw. omg. well tmr phase test. hope everything goes well.

to my dear yiping : cheer up k. don always sad de. keep laughing hahas. bringing sunshine everywhere. like tt den not so dark mah right? -winks-

lovesss

pics we took today out of boredom. lol

2009-11-14T05:54:00.000-08:00

went to cine today, wheee. had lots of fun. met up with xue li and shu ting. went ktv. sang and laughed. hahas. went to subway again. wakaka. think subway makes u lose weight. cool rite. yummy. i wan to watch 2012. rawrr. monday need go sch. sob sob. continue phase test. haish.

charging hp right nw, waiting for xue upload the pics. x)

2009-11-13T02:43:00.000-08:00

finished my soundbooth today. wheee. yay. finally can breath. phase test was supposed to be today, lol but no time so drag till monday. supposedly monday no sch de, but he need to finish some work. so.. anyways sand animation dam fun. hahas laugh till peng. we drew lots of stuff on the sand. hidaya sooo pro lar. drew jun's face. lol still ask him pose beside it. got performance sia. ate subway again. wakakaka

-runs off-

2009-11-12T03:53:00.000-08:00

ahhh, osy hand like osim. hahas. donnoe y her blood or skin so cold de. sooo shuu fuu. passed my test so darn close. only 8 ppl pass. gt 57/100 lol. i know nt tt good. wanted to watch 2012 today de. haish. went to sleep in the afternoon. tmr appointment + phase test + sand animation. SOUND BOOTH PROJECT!!. ahhh. stressed. wthh.

finding some1 pei wo subway. wheee x3

2009-11-11T00:08:00.000-08:00

today was abit awkward at first. coz i asked haiping for stead for the fun of it. lol. regretted it. she sooooo innocent and nice lar. omg. dumb osy. but after awhile everything turned bak to normal. heees x) bloody mr ng, minus my mark for no reason. donnoe y the fk he like to pick on mi. not funny lor. my group already over ler. still ask my qn. think i gt alot of marks for u to minus is it. went for blood taking. thx aris and yoyo pei wo xD donnoe how to do the soundbooth which is due on friday. -____-

help mi..

2009-11-09T06:52:00.001-08:00

had fun today. went for appointment this mornong. well i guess things are going fine. went to 8th note to have some sort of guitar lessons. hahas, needs to learn qing tian and the reason! so can sing and play. xD tmr exams 32 chapters haven study yet. omg. no mood to study. cant seem to study at home. haish.

2009-11-08T11:32:00.000-08:00

hmm, guess i had fun today. played l4d with sw, aris and bert. even gt some lessons from his bro on hw to play guitar well. singing kinda suck. don really know wad im doing. feels like im trying to be someone else. seeing me there doing singing? like feels werid. seeing myself is already... hmm raining today. weather nw adays abit the fked up. sw As coming jyjy. tmr gbt appointment, sian cant go 8th note with u guys. really wanted too. really feel confused at some time, don really know hw to talk to her. hard...

2009-11-07T06:20:00.000-08:00

has been awhile since i posted, hmm things have been going well i guess. passed my tests. hahas. mi and them i think settle ler. nw good frens. tmr singing again. nervous. wonder hw will things turn out. playing with them after church. dota! l4d hehe. tests on tues, thurs, friday. really wan improve on my guitar. hahas.

2009-11-03T02:45:00.000-08:00

Hello , someone here :D
Helped Jireh change blogskin , see i so good .
He keep say i bad bad , bully him ..
Repay you le kays !? , Haha .
He went to study with friends .
Confirm miss him lots ..
Last but not least , JIA YOUS FOR YOUR TEST :D
Okays , end here ...

I♥U
By : His someone :D

2009-11-02T19:49:00.001-08:00

haish, 16 chapters to study for this thursday test. omg lar. how... i mugging fail. lol. got my exam timetable. took pe theory test today. i think even my sister can pass. such a waste of time. even had a fire drill after tat. hot like hell. like in suana lar.

don really know wad am i doing now adays... confusedd

2009-11-02T07:34:00.000-08:00

hmm, nthing much to say honestly. miss her already. hahas. don really know y she wan come my house. sleep? lol lor. tmr pe. theory test. omg, hope i don get kan by mr ng. zzz. kup him like 6 times. hees. dyed my hair. xD

still pissed tt i have exams on 2 and 3rd dec. wth lar

2009-10-26T08:56:00.000-07:00

cant really talk to my parents now adays. always fight with them. guess im short fused. we just cant harmonise. things have not been going well lately. lotts of things in my mind. not sure if im am doing the right things. i guess i shall just take one step at a time. grace always bathing late. dam mad lar. always come bak wan bath she hogging the dam washroom. and parents always side her. wtf. watched pandoram today. lol dam intense. heart was racing thru out the movie. dad's bdae is getting nearer. hope things will turn out better.

and grats to osy for passing her driving test. P.S. drive mi around ler. :D

lovee

2009-10-24T06:18:00.000-07:00

fuck can? friends for sooo many years now wan bullshit around. whisper whisper fun har? keep mi in the dark dam fun lar. fuck off. go bak yr mother's womb and learn before coming out. cb. i don giv a shit wad u think of mi. go hang yourself.

pissed x10000

2009-10-14T05:22:00.000-07:00

dam pissed at alot of things. not in the mood, should really learn hw to let go. maybe just wipe out my memories will make mi feel better. anyway sch has started. i guess i should just look ahead.

2009-10-04T23:38:00.000-07:00

bought a new lappy mouse. woots. logitech!! hahas. eyes dam tired. donnoe why.

& i cleaned my room! opps nope, my table. :D

2009-10-04T21:35:00.000-07:00

ahhh, room in a mess. air-con maintanance people came and moved my things around lar. wake me up somemore. i think i got to get more sleep. just feel that sleeping is a waste of time. hair fast grow grow... lazyyyy

2009-10-04T08:13:00.000-07:00

went to warren water hazard again for dinner wif family. woots. hahas. grace sang! omg she has a beautiful voice too. just that she hides it. fun fun xD

2009-10-04T00:34:00.001-07:00

went to church today. shoo tired. thx jiamin and audrey for the gifts. yays.

2009-10-03T10:28:00.000-07:00

lol, my mafia wars epic fail. i keep losing money idk why, and fish a fish. COME ON FREAKING BITE. msn keep dc just now. rawrr.

2009-10-03T10:16:00.000-07:00

had shooo much fun today. hahas. at night went to water hazard at warren to celebrate my bdae. hahas. the KTV room sooooooo big like 3 times the normal 1 lar. sony tv somemore. yoyo sang first love. GODLIKE. see i praise u here lei. walk home after that. chatted wif frens on the way. hmm things are getting better i guess. hope things will continue to improve. took pics. but wif aris. aww.

2009-10-02T20:59:00.001-07:00

throat seems to be funny today like clogged. i wan to sing today! sob

2009-10-02T09:28:00.001-07:00

had a great bdae today. got 2 cakes. xD 1 from church frens and another from sec sch frens. thx everyone. went to illuma to watch cloudy meatballs in 3d. and played the arcade. had tons of fun. at night we took lanterns out and candles to play. even did a little cycling. hees. i got my face smashed by a piece of cake. osy! mich sabo mi lor. hahas.

came home. wanted to bath. grace using the toliet, why cant she bath earlier since she was home like the home day. fought wif mi a little. mom being unreasonable, always siding her. my bdae every year will always have a little fight cause of my sis. wads this. if my mom only like girls. y she even bother to have mi. tried my very best to be a good brother. i giv.

2009-10-01T09:28:00.000-07:00

omg, yoyo and ham ham came to my house at midnight just to bring mi some gifts and sing me a bdae song! thx guys. x33 shoo touched. will never forget this day. heees

2009-10-01T05:13:00.000-07:00

omg i don wanna fall sick! =(

2009-09-30T06:00:00.000-07:00

went to cut hair today. sob sob my long hair. byees x3 went to funan kimage to cut. whaa longest haircut i had 2hours. 6 bucks only! nw so short. hahas

think im gonna fall sick soon. throat hurts, flu. -screams-

2009-09-29T04:06:00.001-07:00

if you wear "The Jester" mask, then you probably like to show yourself having a fun time around others. You laugh, joke, and play around with your friends, but that's probably not really you. Your real you and the one you pretend to be around others are probably worlds apart. For your cherade to end, you just need to figure out for yourself that a true friend will accept you for who you are. Find out that you dont really need to be wearing your mask.

2009-09-28T22:58:00.001-07:00

feel like im just standing in a corner. waiting for something to happen. feeling dam fked up now. i don even know myself. who am i actually. confused, really confused.

live to die

2009-09-28T08:21:00.000-07:00

went to libary with yoyo in the morning. we went shopping for food. hahas. making sushi and watching movie later at her house. aris made bananna sushi. lol. while i made honey stars sushi. yay. watched monster vs aliens later on. i fell asleep. hees.